When asked about work, for some reason, my mind takes a
sharp turn to childhood jobs: hanging
newly washed laundry on the line, hemming skirts and dresses, babysitting,
turning over the earth in our early spring gardens, planting seeds, weeding
beds, harvesting vegetables and berries, peeling fruits and vegetables for
canning—the apples and tomatoes most of all—and raking the autumn leaves that
pile up on the lawns. I’d add high school and college jobs here as
well, short order cook and server in an inner city corner store, dishwasher, library
aid, proofreader, and envelope stuffer.
I’m surprised my thoughts take such a turn, because my life calling
was to be a teacher, and I spent my entire life teaching—whether high school
English, college freshman writing, Quaker Sunday
school, or my main love, theatre. In fact, the thing I most appreciate about
being a resident at Simpson House is being in the company of so many teachers.
So what do the earlier, childhood jobs have to do with
teaching? I think they have to do with
being useful and finding the link between the earth and its people. Even the college dishwashing, hands gloved
and feet standing on wet floors, taking the used dishes from a window that only
showed the midriff of each person helped with this learning. I remember the time I feared I would be
fired. I had dropped a bowl into the garbage
disposal, and the entire line ground to a halt.
I picked out the pieces I could see, but couldn’t restart the machine. My boss came over and switched the breaker on
and off, threw up his hands and made a phone call. By then I was sitting on a wooden chair and
crying. He stood close to me and asked, “Do
you think you’ll do that again?” I doubted I would make the same mistake again. But I did. I don’t remember how the line came back on. I don’t remember cleaning up the mess and leaving
a clean kitchen, but I remember walking away thinking that could survive mistakes. I know this was a lesson I learned over and over.
It's awesome and humbling to be human and to work with other
humans who, like me, are not perfect but are again and again picking up
something they don’t know and attempting it.
Whether to error or to a break through, we carry that spark of liveliness
which occasionally rises to the sublime.
Each task is a sea / raging and pulling at me / I love being on earth.
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