So now, I am looking for a guide to help me--
I picked one randomly from the internet:
It took about ten minutes, and had me do it for the purpose of developing good qualities for benefiting myself and others. So on the inhale I allowed myself to think "for self" and on the exhale "for others. I alternated this with "inhale" or "ocean" and "exhale" or "shore." I kept pulling myself back from the chore list, from associations.
I think it helped that I wrote the poem "Natural Order" first, working with inspiration from Richard Rohr's meditation that I read every morning.
I feel great. I will keep the idea of benefiting myself and others all day long.
Friday 9/25: Decided to use the same meditation helper today as yesterday, and then see if I can keep it all day. I should ask Amanda if one of the goals is to do this without aids. Earlier this month I worked a few days like that.
Oh--I also want to note that I've now had 2 days of not using Facebook first! Bravo me! It's sort of like quitting smoking.
Saturday 9/26--Meditated this morning to
and I LOVED it!
But I have to admit that I spends a few minutes before finding a meditation looking for that 5-minute Loving Kindness Meditation that Amanda loves. She sent it out again in an email this morning:
P.S. My Insight Timer Favorites:I may have found it once, but I cannot find it again. I'll have to ask Amanda for the Link.
Development of Lovingkindness (27 min)5 minute lovingkindness meditation (5 min)I LOVE Bodhipaksa's voice, his accent, and of course the invitation to practice lovingkindness toward myself, difficult people and the world.
I loved getting a morning email from AManda reminding me to meditate, and: As we approach our auspicious end point, which occurs on a Super Moon & Lunar Eclipse, take a few minutes to send me an email or a recording (audio or video) about your experiences so far. So I will. She also asks how we might continue to stay connected in meditation. I admit what I want is a 5 minute meditation tape in HER VOICE. We have all those minute ones from her--how about a meditation in her voice and whatever embellishments she might like to add.
9/27--Again started with a search and found this for busy people:
I liked it--but it was a woman's voice not the Bodhipaksa's voice. I liked it's attention to the breath and its guidance from body to mind to center and then to tell self what I need to hear.
I also found this that I have not tried yet:
I think I did this one once before:
So: Have I made a change in my life? I note that when I do this my day goes better--just like if I do my physical therapy (and don't eat after 9 pm) at night my sleep goes better. Will I do it? Yes. And even, maybe, more and more during the day as a preparation for stopping and seeing and being mindful of God guiding me at all levels and inside and outside.
What do I mean by God? My connectedness to everything--but not as I usually feel it--so swift and busy. More awash in a gentle pool and discovering I can breathe underwater after all.
I like this in Bodhipaksa's voice, as it feels that he knows what goes on with me in this peripheral vision exercise:
I love that I did this 30-day challenge as part of my year of retreat--indeed--at the very beginning of it as a way to assist everything else I do from now on.
Monday 9/28--The Day After.
I did the River Meditation above, and didn't realize it had ended--kept right on going!! Perhaps not for long, but still. I like that it has no bells at the end and that eyes and all senses are open. What a way to walk in the woods. What a way to walk outside at all! Love.